Kicking Brockhampton co-founder Ameer Vann out of the larger band was a traumatic moment for Kevin Abstract and it's something he thinks about every day.
That's how Abstract referred to the controversial situation during a GQ interview led by the legendary and wholly peaceful Rick Rubin. He opened up about the process of removing Vann from the group, saying it "fully fucks me up, because it was someone I knew since I was 14."
Around the 34-minute mark, he continues, "Just, like, fully cutting someone off in front of people – the audience – is a wild thing. Something you think about every single day." When asked whether he's talked to Vann since the separation, Abstract responds, "Yes. Once. We ran into each other somewhere and it was really quick. Heartbreaking, in a way."
"Do you miss him?" Rubin inquires in his signature soothing tone.
"Yes. Being in a group is weird, it's a weird thing," Kevin says. "Being in a group with people you've known for a long time is a weird thing. ... Our shit is rooted in, like, brotherhood, like, real family shit."
Overall, Abstract doesn't have any regrets about how things went down. But if he had the chance to do anything different, there is one element he would change.
"More time to talk, that's it. I wish that I didn't make the decision so quickly," he says somberly. "Even if we made the exact same decision, I wish there was a little bit more time to talk. And maybe that's because I just miss how shit used to be, so I wish there was a little bit more time."
He then admits that it's led to an ongoing identity crisis with himself and Brockhampton.
In May 2018, allegations surfaced that Vann had been "emotionally manipulative and mentally abusive" in a past relationship. There were also claims of abusive behavior and that he had sexual relations with a minor. Vann, then and now, denies the claims of abusive behavior and relations with a minor, but admits to a pattern of manipulative ways.
Not long after, Abstract and the rest of Brockhampton made the decision to kick Vann out of the eclectic group and cancel the tour they were on. "Ameer is no longer in Brockhampton," they wrote in a statement, pictured in full below. "We want to sincerely apologize to the victims affected by Ameer's actions. We were lied to, and we're sorry for not speaking up sooner."
You can also see how torn up the group was about the scenario in the emotional footage above.
Shouts out to Kevin for being so forthright with his thoughts and feelings. Other topics covered in the interview include his approach to making music, putting on a mask around other people and where he sees himself in 10 years. 👏